All these answers are coming to me. Yesterday, I was worried about how to handle something and I just happened to have a film inside a DVD player and turned it on and apparently, it was already running. So from the middle of this movie, my answer came to me from an old man actor/character. Clear as a bell. I could have easily trashed the answer by saying that it was coincidental but it was a helluva an answer, so I took it and chilled out.
Also yesterday, I'm walking into a room and one person was reading to the other from a book, and the exact sentence they were reading just as I walked into the room... wow, that was a revelation. And then I wondered, have I ever heard anybody say that before b/c I'm not reading that book and I wasn't in that conversation. And I honestly can't remember ever hearing that said before, but it is a human thing, and if I've heard it 999,000 times, it took that millionth time for it to sink inside my head.
And last night... I went to bed asking for clarity on what is making everything turn my story, what fuels it, what propels it, what one thing. It has to come from what my main character wants -that's the fuel right there. And I already had that 'want,' but last night, I wanted clarity about it b/c the character's want is clear but I'm not sure it's going to fuel the whole story and I don't want to get stuck in the middle. So I asked for that clarity to come to me in one word and sure enough this morning, that one word came to me. What a shocker, I did not expect that word; Now I'm completely thrown. But the truth is, that word fits completely so what I'm seeing is how complex this story and this character are. So I'll be spending time today writing notes and back story. And all of this is strange for me b/c all I've ever needed is my lead sentence and that propels my stories. This is 180 degrees different from how I'm used to writing but my gut says to go with it. So what's happening for me is what happens to all writers -we find ourselves constantly beginning. Everything you think you know is thrown out the window and you learn something new about the process. And all of it is a discovery, just like it is for the reader.