OK. I just have to get this off my chest and be done with it. ..
But here I was pretty much killing my create time to promote my blog, which really began as something fun and lighthearted, just another creative outlet and a way to get my art out there and shared,
But then I found myself getting obsessed with promoting and networking elsewhere and pushing. ..and thinking left brain business stuff that only makes me confused. . .and checking my site stats all the time. . .which really felt abnormal and obsessive. ..kind of OCD and besides I wasn't getting much painting done, which really is my first love. ..
And for what? I don't know. ..like fifty more views a day. .and then to find out that submitting your work somewhere is not like publication. ..this game has establlished rules and it requires a huge chunk of your time online. ..searching for other new work and promoting that too. ..and I love doing that, but sometimes well, the butt just turns to mush in my chair and I have to get sometimes too. <3 Don't you?
So I guess I have just resigned myself to thinking "Hey, if they find me, fine. If not, oh well. I just can't let this be the most important thing in my life and dangit, once that beast gets fed, it just wants more and more and more."
Love and hugs to you all. Anybody else feeling the same way here?
The blog I need help with is tessf.com.