@kenwalt50 - I did not understand if your first post was a poem or exactly what you were trying to say, specifically I did not understand the paragraph regarding "control mechanism." However, I am sure your family understands your words to them. Your post was not for me to understand, but your family.
I was able to understand your first post a little better after reading your about page. Is your blog going to be a memoir for your grandchildren? I thought it was very sweet to write a special post to your grandchildren.
Best of luck to you,