Unfortunately, the only way to get to feeling better is slogging through the feelings. One of my favorite authors, Anne Lammot, that really helps me for some reason. I guess because it echos my belief that there is no hurrying through pain, like I said before, it takes as long as it takes, but that there is a point that the grief and pain gets worked out and I think that is the part about your mind letting your heart have time to process it. I will read your blog, writing definately helps get the pain out.
“And I felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again, that at best there might eventually be a little contentment. Everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, and I tried to, I wanted to, but I just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until I didn’t have to anymore.”