I know this is probably wasted efforts, but here is a list of symptoms of BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). I will also provide a link; I think it would be beneficial for you to check this out. This is coming from someone with great sceptisism towards that diagnosis, but that anger of yours is just such a red flag.
Following are hallmarks of borderline personality disorder:
Intense fear of abandonment, real or imaginary.
Having intense relationships with lots of conflict, and seeing the other person as “all-good" or “all bad."
Feeling unsure about one’s identity; a lack of “personhood" or non-existence. Feeling empty, like one has a black put inside them that can never fill up.
Engaging in impulsive “pain management" behaviors, such as going on spending sprees, having promiscuous sex, driving recklessly, abusing drugs or alcohol, binge eating, breaking the law, threatening suicide or making attempts, and engaging in self-harm.
Being emotional unstable: frequent and fast mood changes; uncontrolled, intense anger and rage; and intense sadness and irritability.
"When in a rage, it seemed like my BP partner was channeling an evil spirit. Her eyes had no life in them: just a blankness. She didn’t see who I was or how she was hurting me. There was no way to negotiate, no way to reason or argue. She did not understand rational arguments.
Her voice would become more rapid, accusatory, demeaning, patronizing, irrational, and paranoid. Her tone was very fast—rat-a-tat-tat—like she was firing at me. She would pace and become very menacing, growing closer and closer as I became more and more afraid."
Paranoia in very stressful situations; episodes of numbness or “zoning out" or “dissociation" (feeling numb or "zoned out").
Here is the link: